2004-03-03 ~ 5:19 p.m.
Death and Stuff

Talk about things sneaking up on you...

My aunt died this morning of breast cancer. The worst part? I didn't even know she had it...so, I'm all cheerful, hearing the phone ring once and dismissing it, and about to head out the door, when Dad tells me "Your aunt Betty died." And merrily sends me on my way.

Well, I was in shock. I wouldn't let myself cry all the way to school...I've only met her twice in my life! She lives in Virginia! But somehow, that didn't matter. Once I got into Spanish class, I started crying silently. I calmed down, got through two more classes, and then Yasmeen walked in choir and saw me talking to thin air in this very strange voice. She asked if I was okay, I told her I was fine, and then she asked if I was going to cry. Lo and behold, I burst into tears, and this time I couldn't stop. I couldn't figure out why...and then I was feeling incredibly guilty for not getting to know her better, I think. I remember I liked spending time with her, since she lived on this sort of farm and she'd always let me play with the puppies...

Oh, god. I'm starting to get all teary again. And now Mom and Dad are going to Virginia for a week or so, which means I can't go, being stuck here. Argh.

Well, we did do SOME fun things today. Basically, we stalked people in the cafeteria and then in choir, we sang "Swing low, Sweet Chariot." Basically, the baritones howl "Swinga swinga swinga" for twelve times. Jenica counted. x.x And then rehearsal was pretty strange...I have nicknamed Calpurnia's dishtowel "Fonzie".

Enough said. I'm going to kick the crap out of ff.net...and my e-mail may be strange for a few days, so if I don't reply to anything, forgive me.

...Ugh. My eyes burn. >.<

But I got to talk to Lexi, and that made my horrible day. And Bara-chan was really helpful, too.

Ja ne!